Do thee?

Let there be light.

There was a savage, living in the deepest parts of the unknown amazon. A man of the jungle, brought up by the animals themselves. A life untouched by mordernization, free of humanity. He lived life day to day with ignorance of a world beyond and endless knowledge of whatever lay before him.

There came a time when the savage was out hunting his favorite snack in the dead of night, guided only by the natural light given by the stars and moon. There was nothing spectacular about the night. Just the natural ambience of a dimension, forgotten by one and all. It did not take long for the savage to find his prey, out grazing at a time when most predators would have already had their fill.

With ease, he stalked the creature. Ensuring his planned attack was with no flaws. A lifetime of experience had taught him to spot every loophole in his plan that could possibly exist and correct it. The moment came when it was right to attack, decapitate and devour. With something between a snarl and a roar the savage leaped out at the hapless animal, still foolishly chewing on its tasteless moss. Out of nowhere came a flash of blinding brilliance, far from anything to have ever graced the eyes of the savage. From between the trees the light shone on, as if the sun had dropped from the sky and joined the animals on earth.

Shock. The only word to describe the state the savage stood in, practically stuck to the spot where he stood. Slowly the light approached, capturing the attention of the savage so much that he did not notice the being carrying the light.

"HELLO!" And with this, the last bit of the puzzle was found, the earth held no more mysteries.

Social experiment 727

Now, I've seen the signs coming for too long now, time to take a stand. It's been slipping way too far now, gonna stop it.

What is this motivation that lacks.
What is this power that drives the unstoppable.
It's in us all, when we share it, it works. It's human nature. To be the best, to work towards that at the very least. Survival instinct perhaps, some may say. But wait, it's deeper. It's a fusion of foolishness, determination, and pride. It's that very indescribable emotion that wells up when you know you're second best. Sour, bitter a little bit of power.

I'm drawing parallels, I'm jumping to conclusion. No that's not like me but I'm still doing it. Maybe I might be right. I won't know for sure till much later. But I trust in my very own ability to think, to reason, to question.

Maybe... maybe later.

Let's bring the show to a close and end with a bang. With folly and madness set right in its place. How gruesome, how intriguing this chapter has been. The constant eruption of chaos and rubbish leaving traces of scarring in the wake of its passing. Insanity! Or wisdom, resulting in beauty. Revolution fused with chicken ends with nothing but charlie.


ok.... right about this time everyone who just read that would think that I'm weird. Don't worry, that was just me.... experimenting. If that's what it's called.



Now, back to basics. Is it right of me to feel that way? Did I put in what was expected of me, or did I simply leave it to flop. One or the other, it's over now, I've backtracked a step while trying to jump two.

p.s. I'm not happy with my english results.

The World.

More than I know, more than i believe. The reason why, is because I don't wanna be selfish. I don't wanna keep all the goodstuff to myself. No, I'm not being self righteous, I just seriously think it's boring being the only one with a smile. Perhaps in this I really was made better, perhaps I got a nudge in that direction and responded. It boils down to a matter of choice and listening to advice. For a country with no leader crumbles and falls. For negative thoughts bring a negative person. A negative person brings negative results. For the truth shall set ye free.

Love, for you have been loved. Feel, because emotions were given to be shared. Think, for wisdom and knowledge are blessings. Respect, for it counters trouble. Encourage, for none of us can succeed alone. Believe, for it is the key.

Understood.

Sometimes you just gotta know that it works that way. There's no further explanation. Some things don't have fancy vocabulary to describe.


I dream of the day. When it all ends. In a brilliant instant, all that, gone. No more tears, no more worries, no more bad memories.
Sometime soon perhaps.

Before it's too late.

It's always the case, in the middle of the day I think of the perfect blog post, and by the time I get home it's forgotten. Oh well.




Let's consider luck.

Is luck for real, do random happenings really take place that change the course of events? I don't think so. Luck is irrelevant. To our lives it shouldn't really matter if luck exists. You can't sit under a tree and hope to grow money.

Once in awhile something great happens to you, count that as a blessing. I believe more in hardwork, at least in a sense. Determination matters more. Luck is simply a little push from God to get you further, when you've lost steam. People spend too much time wishing luck would come their way, they don't understand luck is just a multiplier, if you start with nothing, you end with nothing.

hmmmm

This goes out to a handful of people I know.


I'm glad I know all of you. It's been my pleasure being a friend. I thank you for being someone I can trust, someone I can confide in. No amount of laughs and fun with other friends could replace the times I talked to any of you about my deepest feelings. I'm sorry if I ever have let any of you down, I certainly didn't do so on purpose. I thank you.
If I trust you, it means I know you're mature. I know none of you would hurt me with intent. I know i can vouch for any of you with my life. I know i love ya'll. I know you've got it right in life.

Will I be the one?

I know my destination, but I know not the journey.
Many are called, but few are chosen. Will I be chosen? Will I be one to hear the voice? Will I be one to lead the charge?

Such determination, such sacrifice, such faith. Like none I've ever encountered. It's my life's prayer to be that way. I fail in so many ways, but yet... greatness and mercy endures forever.


No words can phantom
No action can show
No picture can capture
No emotion can express
No unit can measure
Just raw awesome power.

Love aint an emotion, it aint a feeling. It's a doing, It's a lifestyle, it's active, it's a sacrifice.

Standing exactly where I wanna be

Wherever the wind blows, you'll find me there. Right where I wanna be.

Forever I'll be with you. Forever will I love you.

What a beautiful smile. Forever will I remember it.






My life, a sacrifice. It's not my own. It's not for me. It's not so I can do all I want and be who I wanna be. It's so I can who I need to be.

oh whatever.

i know it's my 4th time posting tonight, but doesnt really matter.


BECAUSE. AND ONLY BECAUSE
I care.
I love.
I know hope
I believe
I dream
I feel
I don't understand EVERYTHING.
I do what I think I must and can
I am still young
I make mistakes
I do my best
I believe in honesty


I am only human.

Guess what

It's just beacuse I bloody well care.

Hmmmm

Dear world,

I've been around for quite some time now, I wonder if you've noticed. I do care you know, about how stuff's going. I do love being around the beauty you behold. But yet there's this evil that keeps you from showing it off. It's been interesting with the people here with me, ever so often something stupid happens. I've been thinking, would it have made a difference had I not been around? Would it make an impact if I were to leave the stage now? Would I have played another character had you known me earlier? Either ways I just wanted to let you know, I put in my effort. I run my race. I live my life. I love.

Yours faithfully,
Peter

Now what....

I feel quite very useless right now.

For of what use is wisdom if it is stuck in a book
What use is a smile if it is kept in a room
What use is a mind if it cannot think
What use is a ear when it cannot comprehend
What use are hands if they cannot create
What use is purpose if it cannot be fulfilled
Of what use am I if I can't even do that

I do it for love.

Yet again I question the simple thing that is self esteem. Is it that extremely hard to find? Is it that hard to believe you yourself were made good? Is it impossible to give yourself a little hope? I ask why, why is it the things of the world are able to block out all rays of hope. This should never be so. Never. Why is it people don't accept help when they're at their very lowest? It's not that help and hope is not available, the world just refuses to recognize it.



All that I am, all that I do. All that I've learnt, all that wisdom has taught me. All that I've been given, all that I've worked even a bit for. Even if I were to gain the whole world, all this would be useless, if I lost my soul.


Dear friends, this is what you've been told all along. That we should love one another.

Perfect. Just that one bit away.

Dear diary,

I like the week. Physically, I'm exhausted. But emotionally and mentally, It's been almost perfect. Perfect, blissful, living.

It's rather discouraging seeing this world without self confidence. People find it so hard to believe in themselves, that's why they worry. It's like tripping over their own feet. Makes me quite disappointed when I try and help them out but it doesn't work. Perhaps it's simply not my place to be helping them.

I shan't judge. I shan't condemn. I shan't discourage. I shan't disappoint.
I shall work towards doing all of the above, towards what really counts. And then, what I need will be given to me.

Diary... I wonder what you would reply if you were capable of doing so. Perhaps it's just childish dreaming on my part, but there's so much I imagine i would get as a reply.

with peace,
peter.
22/04/09

Encouragement.

Luke 6:37

"Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven."




Dear friends, it's as simple as that. Live and let live.

When I say it, I believe it.

Let's think about today. I feel accomplished. I was irritated. I feel happy. I was bored out of my wits. Rather extreme.


I have made a pact, with myself and me alone. I shall not eat at recess. At most a bottled drink. No solid foods are to be bought. So if anyone who reads this sees me going to buy food, stop me. From time to time it's good to question your life, spot your mistakes. I'm currently going through one of those stages, I hope it helps. Well, it is an ongoing process, but sometimes more effort is needed than at any other random moment in time.
Questions on reliability can be used on myself. Do I think I'm a reliable source of information? Yes. Why so? If I'm not sure, I state so. If I know not, I don't consciously lie. Am I biased? Sure I am, but I do differentiate my facts from my opinions. That's enough of it for today then. Goodbye world.

Means the world to me.

ok i know i just posted like less than an hour ago, but this is my blog and i choose what i do with it.

To those out there, i got a bit of encouragement. Whatever it is in life that God meant you to do, He'll give you the ability to do. And i mean you wont have to put in EXTREME amounts of hardwork, you'll never tire out. Sounds too good to be true, but that's a promise He gave us.
"for those who hope in the Lord will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint." Isiah 40:31.
That is purely quoting from memory, so if i got a little bit of it wrong, forgive me. Sure you'll encounter obstacles and what not, but no matter what with each obstacle will also come divine strength. :)
Another important point. Discipline yourself, do not let yourself backslide. Stick to the faith :D

give me flight

Would you believe me if I said that life could be close to perfect.
Would you believe me if I said that you don't have to work to death for success to come your way.
would you believe me if I said your life could be all that you want it to be and more.
This all is possible. If you know what I mean then you're blessed with the light. But for the rest of ya'll who think that's bullshit I pray you soon find the way, truth and life.


Sorry for how much I've neglected you. Sorry I've been running so quick and forgotten my hope, my life, my rest, my reason. I'm coming back to my Lord. My problem solver. My life planner. My saviour. My all.
And if I had wings I would fly cuz all that I need, you are. And if the world crashed in around me to you I'd still cry out.

Emotions run high

I. Heart.

Dear diary,

I don't get it, why do people give love such a bad name. Why is it people cannot see that love is never the one at fault, its the people who are horrible. Why do people think smiles can be faked? and then think that everyone's smile is fake. Why can they not believe that happiness is for real, it does exist. Oh, the world and its corrupted ideas of beautiful things. 

I learnt something important during the sermon today, affliction is not nice, right. But it sometimes is necessary. We do not like it because we do not see the big picture, we don't see how it'll help us in the future. 

It's what keeps me going, these troubles. They're what i learn from, they're what will mould me to do what's right, what's part of the perfect plan. 

When people say they were born that way, that's utter bullshit. They're being constantly moulded, so it's a matter of which way you allow yourself to be shaped. They don't understand that they decide their own future, they decide who they are. Effort counts for everything. 

Troubles to humans can be compared to pruning to trees. Without proper pruning, a plant can never bear much fruit. Put this in the context of a human, without proper discipline and guidance, he or she would never amount to much. I'm glad I have learnt this and understood. 

And here are my thoughts set free.

Peter.

18/04/09

Amazing

It truly is such a wonder, the awesomeness. You ever had the feeling you're so loved, so greatly blessed, have had so much given to you, that you just wanna bow down and cry? Yupp, that's basically what I go through every now and then. 

Blessed be the name of the Lord, blessed be Your name.

Though storms and weapons may rise against me, You're my defense and my hope.

You give and take away, but I will choose to say, Lord blessed be your name. 

When you take time to think about it, we do live in a rather beautiful world. And the source of anything evil, anything ugly on earth, is actually man and man alone. 

The things that count.

THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU.

To the wonderful friends I have who made recess such a joy. To the thoughtful ones who gave me cards. To the irreplaceable ones who simply gave me more reason to smile. And to the Mastermind, the One who allowed this all to happen. 

I love you guys, I say that as a downright truth. 

I THOROUGHLY enjoyed my day, obviously :) 

God gave us friends to guide us, and also to share our joys.

Truth.

Been feeling quite lost for the past 2 days, quite very lonely. I know what's getting at me, but I know not why it's with such intensity. I pray it passes soon, and peace be restored. I dislike having a weak spot, but I've gotta live with it. 

I REFUSE.

I won't let myself fall, not now. 

I'm not sure who actually reads my blog or how many people do, but to you guys out there, listen up.

Failure is not defeat. It's a temporary setback. I know it sounds cliched, but if you faced every failure as defeat, you'd be pretty miserable. I'm done looking at people destroy themselves time and again. Don't feel sorry for yourself, GET ON WITH IT! Contentment, it isn't that tough. Perhaps you set your standards too high, I don't know, just don't be an arse alright!?!? And no I'm not saying you shouldn't feel disappointment, I'm saying not to overdo it and go ranting to everyone and making a mole hill into a mountain. Know your levels, know yourself. 

Fact that should change your life #2

Wealth is temporary and it only buys temporary happiness.

Money makes the world go round. Right. BUT! Love gives the world meaning. What is it you strive for? A job that would find you infinite wealth? The ability to control the world? Let me tell you this, if you live each day attempting to control the things of this world, you'll never be ready to die.
Wealth is a thing of this world. Meaning? It can come and go in an instant. It has no more value than what man gives it. It has limits. Therefore anyone who lives for wealth will never be content. For a man who chases wealth is like a dog chasing its own tail, after he gets it, he knows not what to do with it, and finds out it has no meaning.
We all require money to sustain ourselves, but money can turn bad when we know not how to handle it. Money is the root of evil. It leads to greed which leads to unimaginable and terrible evil. Greed is the problem here. When man gets money, he just wants more and more of it. For what? Nothing, really, just to feel rich.
No, I'm not saying we should avoid money like the plague. What I'm advising is that we take what we need and give the rest to who needs it more. Live and work doing what you like. That way, wealth wont bother you! I claim to be the happiness man alive, and perhaps I am, just because i believe it. 

What is genetic engineering? The science of genetically modifying an embryo and deciding what a human will be born as. Would this improve the quality of life? I believe no. Genetic engineering is defying humanity; it is disallowing an undeveloped embryo from becoming what it should be. If we were to live in a world of genetically engineered human beings, everywhere we look, we would see a ‘perfect’ person. This would take away the beauty of natural life. If we were to let genetic engineering take place in human beings, we would be lowering ourselves to the level of mere computers or robots. Deciding what the next generation would be, exactly as we want. The beauty of natural life is unpredictability. Genetic engineering would steal this very factor from humanity. 

was writing this. hehe 

Fact that should change your life #1

You're influential.

Yes, it's that simple. Where you're placed in life, it doesn't matter if you're a leader or a popular person. You'll always hold some force of influence over some people here and there. Whether consciously or not, all of our actions affect another.

So think about it this way. As a source of influence, what sort of influence should we be? To our friends, to our siblings, even to people older than ourselves. Well, obviously we should be a good influence.

The very way we live our life tells a story. a story that those around us read, interpret, and learn from. Believe it or not, you're able to affect the way others think, the way they act. That's why we need to live right. Be an example. Be an inspiration. It isn't very hard at all. Bringing hope to others, showing them things can be done. Be a peacemaker, show what love really is.

It all starts from within yourself. Are you able to control your emotion? How about control of greed and pride? People feel challenged when they see how others are able to complete something when they themselves are not. That's how we influence. By subtly challenging others to follow.

ok sorry but erm im lazy to elaborate right now. might continue later :D


Because sentences cant start with because, but I live by my own rules :D

Living

Life is unfair. That is probably one thought that everyone shares in common. So why live it? When you think you've been given the worst possible chances, the worst possible set-up and every step you take, something bad happens. The truth of the matter is, that life is not worth living.

It's worth living when you see hope. Even if the circumstance may not permit, you're able to create your own hope. When you're able to see the lighter side of life and take comfort in it. In the day and age we live in, we're too pampered. We're unable to count our blessings. Instead we only see the blemishes in our life, and this myopic sight is what causes us to lose hope.

If you think your life is completely screwed, its because you're not putting in the effort to turn things around. Instead of complaining about a lack of friends, make new ones. No matter where you're put, It is not intolerable. It may not be what you want, but perhaps its to teach you something, to bring you out of your comfort zone. But it will never be too much for you to handle.

From my point of view, I've been greatly blessed. Stuff may not go the way I want it to, but I learn to be patient. People may not be who I want them to be, but I learn to love them all the same. Evil and destruction may fill the world around me, but I still find joy. And since I've been so greatly blessed, I feel bad keeping these blessings to myself. Therefore I share. It's because I have God by my side. NOTHING can change love. Or so I believe.

I'm here to help those who cannot help themselves. Because I know that's part of my ultimate purpose.

My prayer.

God, I pray for wisdom beyond my years.
I pray for understanding for situations I have not experienced.
I pray You bless me with the ability to speak life where it is needed.
I pray You let me feel your hurt as my own, your love as my own.
I pray Lord, You give me the words to speak, for my human mind cannot comprehend heavenly ways.
And though I know not what You have planned, I believe it is a plan filled with peace and joy.
As I walk through these valleys of death and grief, Lord, allow me to be that beacon of hope, that source of joy, that listening ear, the mouth of wisdom, the shoulder to cry on, that You have been for me. Thank You.

Amen.

Just wanted to let you know I'm still here.

I may not know what's making you this way. I may not be the best person for you to talk to. I may not have said the right stuff.

But I care. It matters to me. And it pains me to stand by and do nothing.

Let's explore.

The good side of disappointment.

Yes, there IS a good side, for those of you who thought i went nuts. When we bother feeling disappointment, it probably shows we bother, we care. if we didn't feel disappointment upon seeing something wrong, upon doing something wrong, then we're probably down the wrong path, agreed? great.

I've had one exhausting month, and it's starting to show. I haven't been feeling at my peak all this while, been disturbed constantly by aches here and there. My stomach, head, muscles, you name it. But yet again through this all i've held my peace. Of that I am proud.
I'm really rather sad that he would do something that seemingly stupid... perhaps I don't get the full picture. But from him, after so much, nope. Would he understand, would he see what I've been getting at? Only time will tell.




I shall be patient. I know the day will come although not when. I'll wait till then and  stay strong. 

Peace.

Through the day I'm running about, scampering like a mouse running from cats. Or perhaps like tweety from sylvester :D
And at night i suddenly realize its a beautiful beach i've been running on all the while. I see the sun setting and i take time to sit down and watch. The beauty of the golden painted mountains at sunset, the liquid gold waves sloshing on the beach. The sound of nothing, perhaps its peace I'm hearing :) As the sun sets I look up to see the stars slowly peak out of their hiding places up high. What beauty that even our nights are filled with light, if each star represented a happy memory, the night would be brighter than day.

Have you ever wondered?

Why is it people go to the ends of the earth to help another. Why is it people risk their lives on a daily basis to save others they do not know. Why do firemen run into the deadliest situations for that minute possibility of saving another. Why do men in the military risk life and limb to protect the families of others whom they do not know.

It's because we're human, it's because greed and evil has not totally consumed the world. Hope exists. So grab hold of it for the ride ahead.




Have you ever explored the possibility that tomorrow may never come? or perhaps that tomorrow will be the day you regret living.
Do you know where you go after that? Do you care what happens to the rest of the world?
Thinking about tomorrow is not so you can worry, it's so you can be ready.




I'm being immature by brushing away the facts, and it's not that I can't help it, it's that I don't want to. To an extent, that is stupidity, the one thing I hate. But yet, there's a reason behind it, a motive.
Willpower can never be discounted, it's an unstoppable force that physics does not recognize. Perhaps I'm 3 parts fool 1 part brave, doesn't really matter. I'm still a whole.

Not because I have to

The pinnacle.

I'm pushing to the edge because i know the boundaries can be stretched. I know the final word has not been given, and opportunity still has place. I'm reaching for the peak I see before myself, it's about time i conquered my everest.
An outburst of emotion, a reserve of energy for my final sprint.



Have you ever seen anything as amazing as love? The thought of it is pleasant enough but what about its implications. Without love there would be no hurt. We feel hurt because we see abuse of love, or lack of love. It's like this, the higher you fly the more thrilling it is but yet the more you have to fall. When you lose something you love oh so dearly, the tendency is for you to fall. With that sense of comfort falling away, nothing is left to support. That's why love exists over such a wide expanse. There's always layer after layer of love to catch you. But there's only ONE true source of love. One way, One life, One truth. John 14:6

I think I've said this before, but just to re iterate my point.

Would you dare accept a hero

I just watched The Dark Knight and i found it's actually a lot more meaningful than it looks.

Sometimes even the toughest fall from grace. But that's what all of us got each other for, to support. What gives us justice, what makes us human is loving each other. Correct? Great.
The world has it's heroes just that not all the time, these heroes are recognized for what they are. Heroes aren't always the ones in the public light, fighting crime and saving the day. Some heroes make the world tick, without anyone noticing, or sometimes even suffer from discrimination because other's dont recognize their good works as what they are. It's the same with suffering.

God lets us suffer sometimes, but that doesn't make him evil. He does it to make us stronger, to make us learn, because sometimes we dont listen when he talks. When you see the less deserving getting better than you, dont complain and make noise. Instead, listen. What is it you did wrong, what is it you didn't follow. Also, celebrate for what you were already given, that you can find your peace. :)


The world needs a saviour. But it won't accept the one who already came.

Thank you God

I loved my week really did. And here's my thanksgiving.

I thank you
for the wonderful friendships I'm given.
for the great works I'm allowed to be a part of.
for the never ending hope that never fails.
for the awesome love that gives me life.
for the tremendous amounts of peace and material blessings.
for making me who I am

Just under the surface.

The joy of climbing a hill is reaching the top, looking around, and then running down. Is that how enjoying life's challenges should be? Sometimes when we reach the top, we just wanna stay there forever more but that just aint possible, life has to go on. So might as well enjoy the run down and on to the next hill.


Dear Diary,
The past week has been a very very very high one. Thank God for weeks like this where i can just lose myself in joy and fun for a little while. But as always, THAT is always there to bring me down from my highest points. But i dont really care now.

I'm starting to wonder if it's all worth the wait, the emotions and the effort.
Shooting is tough... there are more variables and factors than most people notice. I'm hoping, I'm praying, I'm working my way there bit by bit, point by point.

Was just thinking, do I really mean what i say? am I who I perceive myself to be? I guess I do, I guess I am. But I'm not the best judge of myself, eh?

Don't waste precious time.

Recently i haven't been wanting to go home. Just feel like hanging out with friends everyday.

Let me tell you the story of a boy.

He never really absolutely loved his life, always thought he didn't look as great as the guys around him. Always wanted to be the best at something, but never really was. Sure, he had friends, and they were fun, too. But yet he just could not find absolute satisfaction in what he was doing.

There came times when he thought he had found what he really wanted, something that would bring him pride, something he would absolutely enjoy. But as time passed, each one of these things would prove to be hollow and pointless. This is how he lived his life for years on end, and as life whizzed by, childhood was soon over.

Gradually, he grew to see the world was not the simple country he lived in, his simple life. It was so much more, so intricately weaved were the links between people. Such wonderful love and yet horrendous evil could exist in a tiny space. Knowing this also came with the understanding that love and evil could not co-exist, as simple as the theory of light and dark. He decided to pick a side, make a stand. Through this, he found himself.

He now understood that to live and not regret, to have a purpose, you first needed a belief. To live like each day was your last and enjoy each day required a simple thing called love. For love saved this world and all that are in it. It now didn't matter to him that he wasn't always the best at everything, he simply found joy in bringing others hope, in showing them love.

Though hurt and evil still existed around him, he now spent each day fighting this, enjoying the battle. He knew he was fighting a war he would eventually win, for love had power never-ending. Disappointment and obstacles still existed, and at times brought him down, but he only came back stronger.

And as he looked back on his earlier days, he came to conclude.
Money and the things of the earth can bring happiness, but it'll leave eventually. It's your spirit you need to invest in, it's loving others without reason, without hesitation, without circumstance that will bring true rewards.
For when he did this, love came back in greater amounts and he learned to love himself for who he was, and not what he did, or what he had.

This world wont be saved by the best governments, it won't be saved with more of any material, even gold. It'll be saved by love and love alone.